Train of Thought

[curiousb]

It's been a bit quiet around here lately, hasn't it?

This is the reason: I feel like I'm stuck in a complete rut, creating-wise.

I guess it's not really something anyone can help with (unless anyone has some helpful words of wisdom they can share?), but I just feel the need to get it off my chest - so please forgive this minor rant, Friends' List!

See, this is what happens: I get all motivated and enthusiastic about a new project; everything starts well, and for a while I'm motoring along quite happily, making good progress, when suddenly I seem to hit a brick wall. This is usually about the time when I'm trying to put the finishing touches to something - tweaking the final textures, dealing with minor mapping issues, eliminating weird shinyness in-game, etc. I just seem to reach a point where nothing I try to do works as intended, so I get incredibly frustrated with the whole business and decide to put the project on hold for a while. Then I start a new project thinking maybe this time I will actually be able to complete something, and the exact same thing happens.

As a result, I have god knows how many nearly-finished projects lying around that I can't face dealing with, as it just gets me too wound up when I can't resolve the problems that made me put them aside in the first place. Grrrr.

I'm not sure whether this is a case of extreme perfectionism, or just plain lack of skill/ability/talent.

Anyway, suffice to say, I'm heartily fed up with myself - and my projects folder - at the moment. I have so much new stuff I'd like to be able to share, but I just can't get the damn things finished to my satisfaction. Humph.

OK, rant over - I know there are far, far worse problems to have than this - but I just wanted to have a bit of a grumble to the only people who are likely to understand. Now I'm off to make a comforting cuppa.

Comments

[curiousb]

Oh, bubus, you are being way too hard on yourself! Everything you make is beautiful, and I have just about everything you have ever made in my game! But, it is good to know that a creator I admire as much as you sometimes feels the same way.

But thank you for your kind words. And yes, I do think I need to be braver about asking for feedback, and help where it's needed. :)

[lalabubus]

Oh, bubus, you are being way too hard on yourself!

Oh, no, no, I love to be honest with myself :).
Thank you for your lovely words - who is fishing for compliments here :p?

You are right, it's interesting to hear you are not alone in some feelings or point of view. It seems there are plenty of problem variations among those who create.



And yes, I do think I need to be braver about asking for feedback, and help where it's needed. :)

I think you've been brave when saying out loud about your doubts, undefined feelings and uncertainty.
I'd be glad to help whenever you need a second opinion (if it's OK with you).

[curiousb]

Thank you for your offer to give a much-needed second opinion - I'd be very glad to take you up on that some time. :)